Monday, 24 May 2004

• hello everybody. sorry that i have not been updating regularly enuf. i reali din have the time to do this. to all my loyal readers, thank you all so much for staying to this site all this while

  well i m reali doing well. been eating, sleeping, and playing well. juz that recently found that my exams are coming real near and my usual ignorance skills could no longer hide this big fact.

  adding to the stress and ego bashing, during the lab, i got scolded as stupid by one of my frens. it reali reali hurted, and most importantly i reali wanted to go out there and give that bastard a piece of my mind. it still hurt sorely till now.

  its like man, im sorry ok. i was reali reali blur. i duno wat i was doing and the lecturer did not give out the lab manual till the last minute. do you have to be so harsh and direct? no considerations at all for others? do u think your so called intelligence will remain forever?? haiz... watever.. i shall rest this case.

  mayb it a wake up call from above. 'wat the hell are doing wid your life young man?' although i must say quite timely, but such is the manner it is been metted out across to me, im like 'whoa man, wats his prob?' *trying real hard to take it positively* but nah.. i couldn't care less... today is a day to destress...

  *shutting myself to the world* felt as if everything that i did today was jinxed kau kau. nothing that was done seems rite. perhaps im a reali boring person. im boring out every1 around me. i reali do wana make my loved ones happy but it seems to me that im not doing a good job. or perhaps its me and my PMS like mood swings. no offense to the girls, but its now like very swingy i would say.

  or perhaps the expectations that i have was not met or the lack of understanding for each other feelings. i dunoo.. i reali duno. now i feel reali sympathy for my loved ones. hahaa i hate it. all the above makes me feel as though im a very demanding person. i reali dun wan that...haiz

  there goes again.. Calvin's very own internal conflict....

  at the end of the day, i reali reali miss this. a nice hug and cuddling from my loved ones...juz to cushion the worries of the world and make it all go away..

  Calvin signing off...

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